College

College Tuesday: How I Feel About Leaving, Right at This Moment

Hey everyone,

With my departure for college fast approaching (2 days), the feelings I thought I wouldn’t get, are finally hitting. So, I’m going to write them out, in a raw and unedited format, just so you can understand exactly how I’m feeling. And maybe, you’ll be able to relate to it to.

At this moment, I feel like leaving might be a mistake. I’m going to be leaving behind so many great things, to pursue my dream, while I’m stuck in a small room with a complete stranger for 8 months…

And the biggest factor that gives me these feelings is the person I care about most, that I will be leaving behind: my boyfriend.

I’ve always said that I would never let a boy interfere with my education and my goals. No one could ever keep me from achieving what I want, when I want. And up until now, I’ve kept saying it.

Until, I have to actually leave that man behind. The man that I care about so deeply, and so strongly.

And I know that I will still leave. I will still go, and he encourages me to pursue my dreams. But hearing him cry on the phone while we have a conversation late at night, kills me inside. How can I be so quick to choose to leave? How can I leave something so good behind?

And what about my family? I know that they support me in everything that I do, but how can I leave them behind, knowing that I may not see them the next time I come home? My grandma and papa aren’t getting younger. How can I leave them behind?

And my friends? Who have helped me through so much and love me unconditionally? I know that when I leave, that may be where our friendship ends. Left in high school like some of the many other memories.

And of course, my pets. Like other things, my pets won’t be around forever. And with the many surprises that have occurred over the past year and half, who knows how long I have left with them… How can I leave, knowing that any day could be the last?

What makes me more worthy of others to leave and start this next part of my life? Yeah, I know. I worked hard to get where I am today. I worked hard to move on to the next part of my life, so I shouldn’t hold myself back. But in the end, what makes me ready to actually leave?

Nothing. Nothing makes me ready to leave. Actually, I’m not ready to leave. I still don’t know how to really take care of my car, I’ve never had a real job in my life, I kind of know how to make Mac & Cheese, but only on a good day. I can tell you lots about literature, but I can’t tell you how many miles per gallon my car gets. And I’ve never driven out of town. Ever. So, what makes me ready to leave?

Honestly, I’m not ready emotionally to leave. You always take for granted those around you, and the little time you have left with them, even when you know the exact amount of time you have. Does that make sense? To not realize how small of time you have, even though you can tell someone to the minute when you are leaving?

And as much as I never wanted to be that girl, I really truly don’t want to leave my wonderful boyfriend behind. Never did I ever think that I would be so hung up on someone like this, at this point in my life. I’ve always been so realistic about everything I do, and I would’ve said “I will never ever do a long distance relationship.”

I said that up until I finally got what I wanted. This man of my dreams. Damn you love.

I’ve been thinking lately, how is this fair to him? How is it fair to this amazing person that I have, who cares about me deeply and wholeheartedly, for me to leave him behind for 4 months. And I know this seems like a selfish and naïve thing for me to say, considering there are men and women who leave their families behind every day, for up to 1 year, to serve this country. Yet, I still feel like nobody can understand how I’m feeling, for simply going away for 4 months.

4 measly months. 4 months of finding myself in a new place. Finding my passions and friends. Learning something new and building my new independent life. All in 4 months. At first.

But I’ll come back in December. And I’ll be so happy because I will get to see everyone that I’ve missed so much. Including that boyfriend that I hope is truly future material. And then I’ll do it all over again in December.

Overall, I think at this moment, I’m dreading the effects of a long-distance relationship. And I feel a little lost with myself. As every young adult does. I’m not sure whether to remain my realistic and pragmatic self, or to further develop my optimistic and hopeful mind, where everything ends up working out for the best with a little bit of pixie dust.

I want the next 4 months to bring me some insight into what my future may hold for me, and the person that I will one day become. But for now, I feel conflicted about my current choices, and the effect it will have on the ones that I love most.

Love,

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Music

Music Monday: 10 Road Trippin’ Songs

Hey babes!

I leave for college in now 3 days! How is that even possible?? Where has the time gone??

Since I will be driving all the way to college (15 hours), I need some good road trip music. But what makes a song worthy of being on the list?

Personally, I think that a song needs to be classic. Like, sing-your-heart classic. Yeah, instrumentals are great, but they don’t necessarily keep you awake enough for long drives. And if you don’t sing at the top of your lungs, it’s not going to keep you awake.

I know that 10 songs is not enough to make a whole road trip playlist, but I figured this is a good place to start. And the great thing about Spotify? You can add more songs to your playlists instantly!

So, I’ll stop wasting time and I’ll get right to the good stuff! And as always, I’ll be including a link to the Spotify playlist so you can enjoy all of these songs in one amazing place!

  1. “All Star” – Smash Mouth
  2. “Shake It Off” – Taylor Swift
  3. “Best Day of My Life” – American Authors
  4. “Can’t Feel My Face” – The Weeknd
  5. “Royals” – Lorde
  6. “Fortunate Son – Creedence Clearwater Revival
  7. “Body Like a Back Road” – Sam Hunt
  8. “Sugar” – Maroon 5
  9. “Geronimo” – Sheppard
  10. “Old Time Rock & Roll” – Bob Segar

There are way more than 10 songs that are worthy of this list, but like I said before, this is just a little taste of the endless possibilities!

I hope that this list is helpful to you all! And I hope you enjoy it on your next road trip! I know I will when I leave this Thursday! And as promised, here is the Spotify Playlist that contains these songs!

Have any songs you want to suggest?? Please do! I love hearing from you all!

Love,

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P.S. Make sure to check out my last post PDF Downloads! to know how you can get access to some of my PDFs! You don’t want to miss out on this opportunity!

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PDF Downloads!

Hey darlings!

I have a special surprise for you!!

Since my email list hasn’t been working, I know that some of you that wanted to get my PDFs, like 20 More Questions for Your Roommate, and my Camping Checklist, didn’t get them 😦

So, I’m giving everyone a chance to get them! But I’m going to have them up for a limited amount of time, so you have to act quick!

Here’s how to do it:

I’m going to upload each of the 3 PDFs at different time on my Facebook page. But I won’t be telling exactly when.

But you can know ahead of time by doing these things! Each item that you do adds 2 minutes to your notification time!

  • Like my Facebook Page
  • Follow me on Twitter
  • Retweet one of my tweets (you can retweet up to 3 tweets to add time)
  • Follow me on Pinterest
  • Follow me on Instagram
  • Send me your email through my Contact page, so I can add you to my email list

If you do all of these, you’ll know 16minutes ahead of time! Awesome right??

I really want to share with you my PDFs , but I’m only going to have them up for 1 hour once I upload them! So you don’t want to miss out!

Once you’ve added time, send me a message on Facebook, Instagram, or Twitter so I know to let you know ahead of time!

I’m so grateful for all of you, and I hope you enjoy this little give away thing!

Have any questions about this?? Let me know! I hope I made this as clear as possible!

Love,

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College, Guest Post, Lifestyle

Keep Calm and College On

The first day of college is a lot like your first day at a new school. New people. New teachers. New atmosphere. New buildings. Even the food is new. And for a lot of people, all this ‘newness’ can be overwhelming. Terrifying, even. Trust me, I know. I’ve been there. On my first day of college, I was so nervous. I had no idea where my classes were, if I was going to have classes with anyone I knew from high school, or whether or not my professors were going to do the whole “Look to your left. Now look to your right. These are the people you will see at the end of the semester” thing. For someone who doesn’t easily deal with change, all of this was so overwhelming to me, and I just wanted to get it done and over with.

Here’s what I learned though. You can’t let that newness overwhelm or scare you. Once you get past that first week, college can be an amazing place to discover who you are as a person in terms of your values and beliefs, and it’s an opportunity to expand your horizons and meet new people and try new things. My sophomore year of college I joined a sorority, something I never would have considered doing. But I did, thanks to some ‘gentle’ nudging from my mom. Mother knows best, right? Joining Phi Sigma Sigma was a starting point in discovering who I was, what I believed in, and finding myself. It also helped in bringing me out of my shell, and I got to meet so many amazing women, some of whom I’m still close with today even after graduating.

Part of surviving and growing in college is to take classes that are FUN. If you like music, take a music class. If art is your thing, take an art class! Taking classes in subjects that you are passionate about, those are the classes that you look forward to each week. Those are the classes that make it a little bit easier. During my time in college, I took several music classes and had the most amazing professor. I also took a summer class in which both professors, one a music teacher and the other an acting teacher, forced students to get up and move and interact with each other. We sang on stage. We pretended to be trees and frogs and alligators and purple spotted wallpaper (no easy task since none of us were actually wearing purple). It seemed silly at the time but it was so much fun. And that’s what college is about.

College is about having fun, forming new relationships, breaking barriers, and finding yourself. Every experience I had in college brought me closer to the person I am today, a person I am proud to be and a person I call friend. Academics are important too, and the best thing about college is that aside from your core requirements and major requirements, you also get to take some really interesting, fun, and exciting classes. College gives you the opportunity to travel overseas and learn about other countries. You get to learn new languages and learn about new cultures and customs.

College is the place where you get to branch out and explore. That doesn’t mean you should go crazy and do stupid things (drugs, stay out all night, get drunk until you pass out, and so on) but you SHOULD step outside of your shell and have some fun. Don’t be afraid and don’t let yourself get overwhelmed. Take it day by day and if you see something that interests you, go for it! That’s what college is all about. Learning. Discovering. Growing. And when you join in, it makes the experience so much more fulfilling!